This was another story half written a while back , I thought I would finish and post it one go — a bit of a read – let me know what you think
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Helping hands her own little agency, Was exactly what the name stated helping hands she turned her hand to any task that needed to be done by anyone.
You have a problem, you need help, give helping hands A call. That was the logo of the company, her company.
Khushi , Has launched Her business about eight years ago and it had grown from strength to strength. She was a successful business women. She had made her mark in the business world. She had made enough money so that she would never have to work again should she choose to do so. She was almost in the same league as the Gupta’s and the Raizada’s.
She had money, position, security , friends, a son who was gem and yet there was still a hole in her life. A void -she had loved and lost.
What she had lost was more than she could bear to think about. Her father, mother, bua, sister, nephew and niece could now be added to that list. Arnav’s name was not on that list as you could not lose , something you never had.
Arav ran up to her and hugged her.
“What ‘s up mum ?”
“Nothing”
“Not nothing” As Arav raised a finger to her eye and wiped a tear.
He showed Kushi her tear on his finger. “Thats’s not nothing – you thinking about your mum and dad ? Mum, the way I see it you can be sad and miss them or we can do something about it, it’s summer holidays we can go back to India and see them over summer break.”
” It’s not that simple Arav”
“It is – You left years ago and you guys have not spoken because of me – I get it, I have no dad, I get that too- I don’t mind – You say to me drive you round the bend and sometimes you get awfuly cross and horrible and your nose becomes twice the size “
“It does not Arav”
“It does and changes colour , you should see it from my view, but I’m losing the point – we can go we can see them; they can shout and scream like you, at you but mum they won’t stay long for mad – you never do when I have been a tiny bit naughty “
“Arav … its not that easy “
“yes it is” – and if they don’t – how bad could it be, remembering the last time his mum had got really mad at him he had shaved Oscars legs to see if he could change him into a poodle.
“You , didn’t even last half a day being really mad at me”
The seed was planted …. Khushi had spent a long time now abroad in the states and she wanted to go home ….. see her parents they would be furious, hurt, mad, angry – they would all have to traverse the myriad of emotions before forgiveness and acceptance of her and Arav. How much had she missed of their lives how much had they missed of her life … Arav … her success.. and her failures … they would have shared all of it but to date she had only allowed them to share in her failure….. was it really failure …. failure from their view point , disapointment ,hurt and grief…. she had not given her family an opportunity to allow them to overcome that.
her thoughts then and now were very different …at the time she was scared, young , pregnant and single…now she was a parent and older and more experienced …how differently would she have handled that last meeting with her parents if she she could go back and replay that that scene. It was etched in her mind forever – it never changed, or faded, it was not a black and white image fading at the edges .it was their in bright bold full colour – it was in her mind and it was as though it happened yesterday
The seed was planted …. Khushi had spent a long time now abroad in the states and she wanted to go home …. see her parents they would be furious, hurt, mad, angry – they would all have to traverse the myriad of emotions before forgiveness and acceptance of her and Aarav. How much had she missed of their lives how much had they missed of her life … Aarav … her success… and her failures … they would have shared all of it but to date she had only allowed them to share in her failure…. was it really failure …. failure from their view point, disappointment ,hurt and grief…. she had not given her family an opportunity to allow them to overcome that.
Her thoughts then and now were very different …at the time she was scared, young, pregnant, and single…now she was a parent and older and more experienced…how differently would she have handled that last meeting with her parents, if she could go back and replay that scene. It was etched in her mind forever – it never changed, or faded, it was not a black and white image, fading at the edges. It was there in bright bold full colour – it was in her mind and it was as though it happened yesterday.
What was the worst that could happen if she listened to Aarav, she would returned home, build a few bridges, not everyone would forgive her but then again not everyone would remain angry. She reran her last encounter with her parents and family in her mind… she had survived the last fall out and she would again if need be … yes it might be painful but this time she was more experienced and she had Aarav she would survive. There was so much to gain and so little to lose. She ran scenarios of the possible outcomes of a repeat meeting and every which way she played it out it was never as bad as history had recorded. With that in mind, decision made she was going back to Delhi and Lucknow and try and meet her family and repair broken bonds. Had she severed them or had her family … now when Khushi looked back she couldn’t define who had … events had taken place, words said, actions taken and then nothing. Neither side had had opportunity to sit and talk – She had certainly not made any effort to re contact her family because it had been so painful breaking away and then time stepped in and had just ticked away …and now almost 9 years on she was revaluating herself, her life.
She had kept tabs on everyone, every individual throughout the last 9 years now it was time to repair and heal those relationships.
Payal was the weakest link and that’s where she would start…
“Wow! mum this is a fantastic house – is it really ours? or just for the summer holidays?”
It’s ours … I have decided no more running away we can have two homes one in the states and one here. Then you will always have somewhere to come back to when we want to. If things work out its not far from your cousins house and you guys can meet up and play.”
Khushi had picked a location, not far from Shantivan but far enough away to hide but close enough to walk to if required.
She had sent Payal a message to meet for lunch at the Comfy Corner – she had made the invitation very simple and clear.
It’s been a long time, I’ve missed my sister at every turn, I have never forgotten I think its time to heal and move forward, I can’t change my past but I can change my future.
I hope you will be able to be a part of it …. You don’t have to declare it to the world I can be your best kept secret … I hope you will meet me…. Sorry and Love Khushi.
There had been exchanges of emails -very carefully worded on both sides and now finally a face to face.
Khushi had tried on about ten outfits and they were strewn across the room …
“Mum stop! Enough!.. This outfit is fine, you will look peng.”
“Kya?”
“peng mum peng it means lovely, beautiful”
“Aarav, you don’t understand this is a really important ..”
Aarav cut his mother off.
“Mum! If you don’t get dressed there won’t be anything ..your meeting will have vanished you will still be here thinking… I mean how mum? How can you be so good at work and here you can’t even dress yourself or get yourself to a meeting… I mean … I’m the child and you’re the parent and here I am dressing you and trying to make sure you at least get to the meeting … If you mess up there that’s on you but take this and go change”
Khushi sat at the Comfy Corner in a private seating area shaded from the sun overlooking the pond, she was an hour early; she hadn’t been able to eat anything since yesterday.
She had ordered a drink but not touched it, and she had been twisting the corner of her dupatta until the little pom pom had come off and now the gota was coming undone at that area.
Then she saw her … Payal still the same slightly plumper but essentially the same walking towards her.
Payal and Khushi looked at each other … Khushi big welcome speech evaporated, and silence followed …Khushi was speechless for the first time in her life. Silence ensued both were frozen in time, memories of their last meeting resurfacing. Both stared at each other unable to move or say anything tll the waiter appeared “Would you like to order more drinks?”
This mobilised both girls into action “tea please” in unison.
4 cups of tea later “Only you Khushi can drink 4 cups of tea and have nothing to say”
“Payal I have missed you” and that’s all it took for the dam of emotion to break.
Both were hugging and tears flowed freely for a long while.
Payal updated Khushi on her life … she had married Akaash had three children two boys 5 and 3, Ahaan and Aadi and a girl just under a year her name was Akashya. She was married and lived with the family, Dadi, and Akaash’s parents and Akaash’s elder brother Arnav. Akaash knew she was meeting Khushi today and they had decided not to tell any of the family.
“Khushi smiled …that’s OK I met you and that’s more than enough for me”
“No Khushi, a lot of things were said and they can’t be unsaid, but Akaash and I have decided that it’s time to move on- here” and with that she hand Khushi a envelop.
Khushi hands were trembling as she opened the envelope – an invitation to Akashya Khushi Singh-Raizada’s first birthday party at Shantivan at 4 :00 pm and the invite was for as many as you would like to bring.
More tears flowed …”Khushi ab bus bi karo. The past we will talk about in time ….you left and you never came back, you never even glanced back at me to ask how I felt about everything. I have always had your side in all of this and always will. Now tell me more about you – no one knows anything much about you – what happened? What have you done in the last 9 years …. Do you…. have a child?”
And with that she Khushi smiled….. “Aarav 8 years old very old for his age and far too serious ……. I never wanted my decisions to have an impact on your life – I wanted you to be able to marry whomever you wished to without having me as a stain on your reputation – so I left and went very far away”
“Khushi where are you staying… am I allowed to meet Aarav …. He is my nephew, your son?
“Payal, I’m not married and have no one on the horizon is that going to be a problem?”
“Not for me and Aakash or my children…. Dadi doesn’t say much about you .. she knows you exist, she’s aware the cloud you disappeared under and she knows me – my relationship with you will not have any repercussions’ for me and if they do Aakash said he will deal with it including his mother. Arnav doesn’t really get involved in family business unless someone says anything to upset us and then he deals with them with an iron rod. Buaji, Mum and dad are going to be the ones to contend with especially Bua ji and I think Dad – but even then Khushi when you’re name has come up in conversation and recently it has when naming Akashya … I think there was only regret and what if’s. I think one step at a time but the doors that were slammed in your face will open very easily it’s only going to take you to knock. By the way are you ever going to introduce me to my nephew ”
And with that discussion flowed about Aarav.
It was a long time later after several missed calls that Khushi and Payal left.
The next morning at Khushi’s house breakfast was set for three … Khushi, Payal and Aarav.
The doorbell rang and Aarav opened it and saw a pretty lady in a sari standing there twisting the corner of her sari.
“Namaste, Oh god, I thought mum was bad but stop! You’re going to break that corner of the sari…. You have to be my masi – have you and mum got shares in tissue industry”
Payal had tears running down her face when she saw Aarav – how much had she missed – this was her nephew and he had an uncanny resemblance to her boys.
“Stop” as Payal took a step towards Aarav…. “You can hug me if you want to but don’t pull my cheeks and please stop crying …. I’ve had mum doing it since yesterday.”
Soon the three all sat round the table having breakfast, Khushi and Payal had aloo Puri and tea while Aarav had toast and orange juice.
“ You know its uncanny my boys have toast and orange juice, they hate aloo puri, while me and Akaash love it.”
It was lunch time before Payal left.
“ somum, that’s one down three more to go…. Who is next on your list…. Divide and conquer”
“Mum”
Over the next week Payal became a regular visitor at breakfast time and had started bring her children over.
Payal had gently broken the news in secret to her mum that Khushi was back in town with Arav. She shared stories and pictures of Aarav with their mother mum, breaking down her resistance.
Khushi had originally said mum but then revaluated her decision- mum and dad had to be together and Buaji would follow behind.
With that in mind she emailed her father –
“Babuji, its Khushi, it’s been a long time- I am sorry for what happened in the past, I am sorry how I left, I am sorry that I never contacted you until now, I am sorry about countless things but the one decision I am not sorry about is my son Aarav. We come as a package deal. I would like to come home, I would like him to meet his grandparents and build memories for him to cherish when we are no longer with him. If you are willing to take a step , I will come running .”
All Khushi father said “Finally my daughter and grandchild are coming home when are you arriving ?”
Aarav saw his mother staring at the computer screen crying.
“Ok what gives mum, more tears …. I think we need to go back…. I have never seen you cry so much as now since we have been in India.
“ My Babuji wants to meet me and you”
Khushi made an appointment to meet her father at Gupta industries head office her father in turn cleared his diary ready to meet his daughter.
With trepidation she arrived at head office presenting her self … KKG to meet with CEO Shashi Gupta at 2:00pm
She was dressed in a clean-cut cream Dior business suit with heels to match.
She knew her way round this office well but waited for instruction. As Khushi entered the lift the penthouse office heads turned.
Who was she? She was beautiful and oozed power and confidence.
As she arrived at the top floor her confidence had ebbed away and all that was left was a scared young girl about to meet her father after a very long time.
She left the lift after being reminded by the lift attendant that this was her floor and she was expected. Khushi arrived at the outer office let herself in and saw a familiar face
“Khushi go through your fathers expecting you”
“Sushma Aunty nice to see you” her dads PA had not changed in all these years.
Khushi entered her father’s office and saw him standing waiting at the window.
Both looked at each other – he was a lot older, his hair was now thinning and completely white, he looked gaunt around the eyes, more wrinkles or more Khushi lines as he used to call them but his eye were the same filled with remorse regret and brimming with tears.
She had walked into his office not knowing what to expect – but not this and in that instant everything was forgotten… her last meeting ….his words …his actions …. She held up her hand to her face she stilled remembered his slap, the sound it made as it contacted with her face, she could still feel the stinging on her face, the hurt and disappointment in his eyes at her news.
They were both immobilised staring at each other, a few feet apart but that distance seemed like miles and then in a split second the distance was traversed and Khushi was in her fathers arms. She could feel his tears as they spilt out and fell on her and she sobbed into his shirt.
Father and daughter stood silently for a long time holding each other let the regret of the last 9 years wash away.
“Ba… ba. .. hic …buji….. sss …..oo….rrryyyy” was all she could manage.
“We need a drink and I don’t mean tea.. Khushi bitia…”
Shashi walked with Khushi to the sofa poured a drink for each of them .
He took his in one swig ….how long had he been waiting for her and he knew the first step had to come from her. He had prepared everything for this moment it had been 9 years coming and still when it happened he couldn’t say any of the things that he wished or planned.
It was a long time later that Shashi spoke.
“Khushi, I’m so sorry ….”
“You let me go when I needed you the most..”
“You left … you never gave me a chance…”
“You should have never let me go…”
“I never let you go Khushi … I just let you grow…”
“YOU never once said stop Khushi don’t go…”
Shashi smiled and took hold of Khushi hand “You had decided to have Aarav”
“You know my son’s name” Khushi interjected accusingly.
Shashi smiled “ You were my baby, hardly out of nappies yourself, setting of to have a baby by herself come hell or highwater and being a single parent is not easy at the best of times. Garima and I were not about to let you try and do this all by yourself; Khushi we had to let you go, grow, live and come back to us of your own free will when you were ready.We were never far away, we were your shadow stepping in when you needed support. Now don’t go getting mad a lot of time has passed”
Realisation was dawning on Khushi “did you fund me to get me to the states”
Shashi realised that the only way they could all move forward was for him to come clean –
“Yes, I arranged the visa, your accommodation and helped finance your ideas. Khushi your ideas, not mine, you made it work, not me – it’s been your achievement, not mine. I have watched Aarav grow and so many times I have wanted to say to people that’s my grandson, my Khushi son, but I have never spoken to him, me and Garima have always kept our distance from him until you made the first move.”
Khushi cried even more “all this time I thought I was alone, I never really was. How could I be with a father like you.”
“Khushi that last meeting ..”
“Stop Babuji”
“We were both upset things were said and I don’t blame you but it took a really long time to understand and accept what happened- only when I had my own child then I could begin to comprehend your feelings – It can’t have been easy for you either”
Khushi couldn’t believe that all this time when she thought she’d been along she’d actually had both parents by her side. Then Shashi asked the million-dollar question, he’d asked that night and now he was asking again “who is Aarav’s father? Does he even know of Aarav’s existence?”
A much more mature, secure, less anxious and nervous Khushi replayed her conversation in her brain in the cold light of day “Arnav we need to talk ….. Arnav why haven’t you answered any of my calls….Arnav are you avoiding me …. Arnav please call”
She had called and messaged him he hadn’t responded; he hadn’t replied; all she had back for three weeks was silence. She had never actually told him her news. She had never shared her feelings for her unborn child. She had never voiced her feelings …there was life inside her and she had no option but to give birth and face what ever came with that decision.
She would face it alone if need be or share it with him. But Arnav had made his decision by replying in silence.And then Khushi had made hers – the baby was hers and she would face her family.
She still remembered the shock and disappointment in her parents eyes….her mothers words were the most heart felt of allthat she listened to that day ….total silence. Her mother had not felt enough or cared enough about Khushi to have an opininion about the situation at least her father responded and Buaji was the most vocal of all. An argument erupted with her father slapping her for the first time in his life -now she realised out of disappointment and frustration not anger.
Buaji told her to leave before she destroyed not only her life but Payal’s; and that was the reason she left in the early hours of the morning with a suitcase before anyone else could add anything else to the fire and went to her best friends house booked a plane ticket to Canada and was gone the rest was history.
“No Babuji , he doesn’t know …… he didn’t want to know….. and now he has no right to know ………Aarav is mine….. and mine alone. If Aarav wants to know who is father is …I will tell him when he’s older….the topic of Aarav’s parentage is a closed topic.”
Babuji thought small steps for now, but that topic was certainly not closed.
“Shall we go Khushi, pick up your mum and then introduce me, I should say, us to our grandson.”
Khushi and Aarav spent the next two weeks getting to know the family and loving it. Aarav had everyone wrapped around his little finger running at his beck and call.
His cousins loved playing basketball, come to that any ball game with him and Akashya just liked crawling up to him curling up and sleeping on him.
Aarav loved his new found family – they were all mad like his mum but he loved them. Khushi had met everybody except Arnav he’d been busy away on business but said he would be back for Akashya’s first birthday.
Akashya’s first birthday party was a grand affair, evening dinner all family and friends and children.
Khushi was aware that Arnav would be there but hadn’t run into him as yet. Even so many years on she could hear the whispers behind her back yes that’s the one that ran away-not married -has a child – was taking drugs -bad girl- not at all like Payal. Khushi had heard it all before, in the States people didn’t care; life was fast and you had to make it work – if you were good at your job and made money people accepted you as they found you. That’s what she had liked about the States the anonymity and acceptance of her situation Aarav had no cross to bear as she was a single mother.
Here it seemed as though society was caught up in it’s own time warp, they had its own set of values here she was Shashi Gupta’s runaway daughter single and with a child in tow- his money and position would open the doors and make her accepted but not enough to stop their tongues and comments.
Khushi and Aarav had grown a second skin to these barbs, and she knew exactly how to return them in her own environment but here she was in her sister’s house – here she couldn’t return the comments just listen and ignore and stay silent.
She checked on Aarav and made sure he was not having to contend with anything – He was doing fine playing with his cousins and a group of children.
She never understood why people had such huge first birthday parties for children as it was a complete adult affair. She remembered Aarav’s first birthday she had a cup cake with one candle, she walked to the park and had a picnic they played on the swings and fed the ducks and had a ride on a llama in the park.
Khushi grabbed herself a cup of tea and took herself of to a secluded part of the house to have time away from the crowds of busy bodies. She liked the calmness of the water, the greenery of the plants and the peace that the poolside provided.
“Hello Khushi … I was wondering when we would run into each other”
“Hi Arnav”
Arnav knew that Khushi was back in town, after leaving home nine years ago; he had done his upmost to avoid her, he had organised away business trips and scheduled meetings so he wouldn’t have to at home when she was likely to be there. But he knew it was inevitable Akashya’s first birthday a big party – she was going to be there and he was going to have to meet her face to face. The last time he had seen her was over nine years ago and he remembered every second of it. The memory was etched in his mind vivid and alive he had not forgotten even if she had after all this time.
Khushi thought to herself, he’s older, more muscular than she remembered, it looked good on him; he was still eye candy back then and now.
Both individuals stared each other Erie silence followed both didn’t know what to say to the other after their initial greeting and when they did they both started simultaneously.
“How have you been?”
“Are you staying for long in India?”
“No you first” said Khushi
“Fine, Are you staying long?”
“ Aa.. Aa..Aarav’s Summer Holidays”
“ Enjoy …. Excuse me I have to get back”
Both curtly nodded and parted company. Khushi really needed to sit down and drink her tea her heart was pounding in the chest as though it had done a marathon while her legs felt like jelly. Khushi had rehearsed her first meeting with Arnav a thousand times over in her head and never once had any of the scenarios played out like what had just happened. She had barely got a word out…. Her who could talk for India could barely put two words together.
He hadn’t even made any effort to continue the conversation with any form of niceties; he had replied with the bare minimum of effort as though it was too much effort for him to speak to her. He really didn’t want to have anything to do with her. Well his Answers confirmed now more than history that Arnav wanted nothing to do with her. If and when Aarav wanted to know about his father she would tell him but until that day arrived she never would.
Over the next two weeks Aarav and Khushi became frequent visitors at Shantivan with Aarav spending an increasing amount of their time there, and Khushi joining her father at Gupta Industries head office.
Babuji was surprised at her discipline and work ethic, she was running her business from Dehli and running it quite well not only was she doing that but there was occasion when she sat in on his meetings and he saw another whole side of her ….one that might have never developed if it hadn’t been for her life experiences …he had thought she would get married cook and have kids and be a perfect housewife and soul mate for someone with a lot of patience and money – she had no idea how money worked and what people were like when she left home 9 years ago. Now this Khushi predicted, calculated and made business decisions while her father was still weighing things up in his mind, she came with an idea and placed it Infront of her adversaries and gave them a time frame in which to consider her proposal, she rebuffed their suggestions and place her own instead and end result was a business deal where Gupta Industries had suddenly increased their profit margin by 48%. Not a small sum when the zero’s were added.
Over the next two weeks Babuji took Khushi first and then to all his business meetings where negotiations were underway -Khushi had a knack with negotiations and numbers – people smiled at her and thought of her as another rich man daughter pretending to play shop and by the end of the meeting they had a new level of respect for her. She was no longer the girl who had run away from home and returned unmarried with a child in tow but she was actually a nice person, which was rare in the business world, who was sharper than her father and stung you, you without realising let you make some money while she made a lot more for her company.
In the business corridors whispers had grown to such volume, that everyone knew that Khushi was going to be a bigger force to reckon with than her father, her father was grooming her to take over Gupta Industries as CEO while he took a back seat and retired.
The reality was her father hadn’t even thought about it – he just never had given the idea any thought as he grew to rediscover Khushi he was finding her strengths and weakness and what she was good at was negotiating, calculating and finding her opponents weaknesses and making it her strength. She had an eye for colour and design, but they were not as strong. That’s why Helping Hands had become so big in the states.
He realised it was time to bring Khushi back home, and he had to let her think it was her decision and then there was Aarav to consider – he was a good boy but in all essence he was American- was it fair to take him from everything he knows to a whole new way of living.
It was time Khushi found herself someone who would accept Aarav and her. Nine years she had lived without anyone in her life that was long enough to get over someone and for the right reasons Aarav and her family, he was sure she would consider moving back.
Of all the possible suitors he thought about Arnav was the best person – in spite of tough exterior and bad temper and razor-sharp business sense, he had seen him with the children and Payal – he was a completely different person. He had the temperament to take on another man’s child as his own. She would move into a house with her sister and her family – that was it He was the perfect candidate. Now all he had to do was introduce them and let them spend time with each other and he was sure the rest he could manage with gentle persuasion – Aarav was the key for Khushi to stay … she would always do what’s best for him. Arnav’s weak point was pretty girls – he had seen quite a few on his arm but no serious relationships. Nani and Di were his weak points – Khushi was pretty the difference was that she was intelligent -he would enjoy sparring with her so really it would be if Nani and Di would accept Aarav and from what he had seen they had already formed a relationship so that hurdle was almost sorted – no the main problems were trying to convince Aarav to move here, And Khushi and Arnav to accept each other.
“Khushi, I can’t make it to this meeting a small company going under a clothing, manufacturing, design company – take my place tomorrow see what’s on the table worth our time and investment or is it a simple take over strip the company of its assets and get rid of the rubbish or not worth our time and money.”
“Yes, sure Babuji time and place and where’s the updated file on the company and accounts”
“It’s a joint venture with ASR designs, so get the file of him tonight and go with him in the morning to the meeting as you will be leaving Aarav there anyway”
“ ASR ??? you mean Arnav ? What Babuji ? You sure I cant take the meeting here, and you go with Arnav ?”
“No Khushi, I can’t – if you can’t do the ASR meeting, I will have to cancel it and reschedule it or lose the business all together.
“Babuji why do you take so much on? I’ll go don’t worry.”
Khushi waited at Shantivan until Arnav arrived home.
“Hi Arnav, I was waiting for I need to pick up the files for tomorrow’s meetings and what time are you going in the morning; I’ll make sure everything is ready for the meeting.”
“What Khushi? Babuji asked you to read the file for tomorrows meeting? But why? I’ve read it, and already sent him the proposal, why do you want to read it?”
“I don’t want to read it; I have been told to read it”
“Ok sure, but it’s not down your thing, there’s no music or cooking in that folder, its basic accounts and analysis in there ….you sure you want to read it, you never used to read anything before except comics Archie and Phantom from what I remember ”
“May I have the files, please……….Thankyou”
Having got the files, she grabbed Aarav’s hand and said her bye’s. Khushi spent most of the night reading, analysing, restricting departments when she saw who their designers were and what their designs looked like. This could be the gem in ASR and Gupta Industries – the designers and infrastructure was there, designs needed to be tweaked to make them more affordable for production, This could be a workable project without cannibalising the whole company – yes they had to get rid of a few staff but the percentage profit was there to be made it needed a cash injection and then would be sustainable as long as the designs were tweaked for the current market price point.
It was 5am by the time the analysis was completed she could get two hours sleep and then waltz her way over to Shativan. She thought to herself I’ll do the meeting and then have a nap.
“Sorry I’m a little late, what time are we leaving ?Arnav?”
“You’re seriously not coming are …. uncle mentioned something, I thought he was joking”
“I’ve read the documents, I can manage more than a comic these days, I can read write and add now I’ve made it to big school, I actually play with the big boys now”
“I’m sure you do; Aarav is a testament to that” he whispered quietly so that only she could hear it
Khushi looked up sharply what did he mean by that.
She watched as Aarav and Arnav had breakfast, each mirroring the other how they applied the butter, bit into their toast and drank their juice. Khushi was unsettled by the uncanny resemblance between father and son. Mamiji and Nani and Di all commented how similar Aarav’s habits were to Arnav’s. Less than 4 weeks left and then she would be back home.
Home? She had been questioning that term, where was home for her and Aarav …. Here he had family and grandparents, there he had childcare but that was all he knew …could Aarav manage the change and now the similarities would it not be better if they were kept apart.
“Well, if you are coming then we had better go and discuss strategy before the meeting. The strategy is simple I’ll talk, and there will be silence from you, that used to be a hard concept to follow, how about now?”
“What the…just like that ….you are not even going to discuss my findings and analysis, I’m not invisible you know, I exist , I have a voice and an opinion, and you can hear it on the way or in the meeting but I will be heard and listened to MR ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA, I’m good, bloody good at what I do, I run a multi-million dollar business, that I set up from scratch, by myself (but that part was looking doubtful since her fathers’ revelations but she didn’t know that at the time and he didn’t need to know that either) with a child in tow. I’m not just a pretty face, with her head in the clouds filled with dreams, who will believe everything that someone tells them. I am KHUSHI KUMARI GUPTA, and you WILL do me the courtesy of shutting up.”
There was pin drop silence at the table, everyone was stunned into shocked immobility – watching the battle between Arnav and Khushi. No one had ever spoken to Arnav like this and survived, in fact no one had ever spoken to Arnav like this at all. They had never realised that Arnav had an opinion about Khushi.
Arnav opened his mouth to start speaking when he felt his sleeve being pulled.
“What the….”
“Give in while your ahead, I’ve not often seen mum this mad ….you won’t win … accept your punishment like a man” speaking from the voice of experience.
The rest of the members at the breakfast table stifled their laughter. Aarav had diffused the situation in innocence that only existed in children.
Arnav had never seen Khushi this angry, what multi-million-dollar business, there was a lot of information to process hidden behind what she had said, and that to with anger-he would analyse that later. Arnav realised that since he last saw Khushi and realised that she had left the country, and that she was not coming back, he had purposefully sieved all the information that about her, he had not read anything about her, or asked any family member, especially Payal, about her, in fact he had built an impenetrable wall around himself when it came to her. She no longer existed for him and he had survived the fallout from Khushi and here she was back forcing herself back into his life.
“Shall we go and we can discuss your findings?”
With that they both left but not without Khushi getting up and kissing Aarav on the cheek … “See you later and be good for your masi, no fussing about food, just eat what’s cooked for everyone. Not like someone I know”
The rest of the table were now really finding hard to control their laughter – someone had told Arnav Singh Raizada to shut up, he had got something wrong and the comment about food was directed at him”
“Car Khushi”
As soon as they had left Aarav spoke up “I wonder what bit my mum first thing in the morning, it takes her a lot to get that mad, Arnav Uncle is really nice, I wonder what he did to mum to make her that mad?” in his next breath as only children can his statement was forgotten only left echoing with the adults. “Let’s go play” he said to his cousins and then all the kids were gone except Akashya who was still eating up in her high chair.
In the evening when Arnav and Khushi returned …
Aarnav ran up to hug his mum and then looked up to Arnav “Hey Uncle what’s the weather like?”
Arnav looked at Aarav confused “How’s it going little man ? the weather ?”
Aarnav pointed to his mum as Khushi waltzed into the kitchen she was starving, angry, furious and she wasn’t even sure in which order.
Arnav looked over to the kitchen Man you’ve screwed up big time uncle, the weathers not only hot but explosion hot – mum’s making jelabi’s”
All Arnav could do was look and say the meeting went well – I don’t know why she’s in a mood sitting down. Aarav quickly clapped his mouth over Arnav’s mouth trying to silence him.
“Dude she’s my mum she will hear you from in there… you are going to be made into mince when she’s finished with you; I’m trying to save your skin”
The other members sitting around were bursting with laughter watching the drama play out – Payal remembered Khushi’s Jelabi making. Aarav trying to warn Arnav of the coming storm.
And then a series of events happened all simultaneously, Shashi walked in asking Arnav how the meeting went?
Khushi walked out with a plate of jelabi munching on one.
“That bad” said Shashi nodding over at the jelabi plate
“How dare you say I going to walk away from a project on a whim and leave things unfinished”
With that she gave the plate of jelabi’s to hold slapped Arnav across his face with rage and frustration of the last 9 years – she never walked away from anything, and she was literally left holding the baby.
She took the plate back from Arnav’s hand grabbed Aarav’s “We are going home”
And with that she swept out of the room leaving a stunned Arnav and everyone watching ….
“What exactly happened at the meeting today?” Shashi uncle asked.
All Arnav could reply was “what the …”
“Arnav ji what happened today?” that seemed to be the echoing question around the room.
Shashi looked at Arnav, “I have only ever seen Khushi that upset or that angry that she lost control and that was the night she told us that she was expecting Aarav – so what exactly happened at this meeting?”
Arnav was quick to reply to Shashi … Meeting went fine, there is a new plan on board. I’ll explain details later right now I have to go after Khushi and sort this mess out and with that Arnav was gone.
“Payal exactly how well do Arnav and Khushi know each other ?”
“Babuji, I think this is the most time they have spent together is today”
“Akash, Anjali anyone …. How well do Khushi and Arnav know each other? And I’m not talking about now I’m talking 9 years ago”
Blank faces looked at each other all to scared to delve under the surface of that question. They had all been family friends for a very long time, the relationship had grown stronger and closer since Payal’s marriage.
Payal what do you remember about what Khushi told us about Aarav’s father – Devyani was listening ….
“Shashi …you cannot be thinking to suggest what I think you might be suggesting”
“Devyani, Khushi told us nothing about Aarav’s father and will not tell us anything ….all she said what was the point in destroying two households instead of one”
Payal added “I would be destroying my own family ….and I would never let anyone hurt my family knowingly”
“No point in worrying about it lets wait and see what the outcome is”
Not one adult vocalised their thoughts especially Shashi- but he felt it, Khushi reaction to Arnav, that Slap, her comments, there was a lot of unsaid words in that slap and Arnav famous for his anger and temper tantrums, didn’t say a word, he accepted it. A wronged man would have reacted instantaneously – Arnav was to slow responding, it was a while after that he galvanised into action to go after Khushi. There had to be unresolved business for him to settle and not from today. You didn’t need to be an astute businessperson to deduce that just a parent.
“Mum what’s wrong? Please talk to me?”
“Aarav, please don’t worry, you know what I did was wrong beta, I just lost the fight without even letting it begin.”
“Khushi we need to talk”
“Who let you in?”
“Uncle what you doing here? You got a death wish? after what mum just did to you?”
“Aarav would you mind if I spoke to your mum alone?”
“Depends on my mum …mum do you want to speak to uncle alone? Or should I ask him to go”
“Aarav you never ask a guest to leave, that’s not polite”
“Neither is slapping them, mum”
“That was in his own house, I promise I won’t do it here”
“You’re not going to fight or kill him are you? I want a mum to go back to the states with”
By now both mother and son were smiling at each other – the banter had relieved some of Khushi’s tension
“We will be going back together Aarav, don’t worry”
“Ok you two, be nice to each other and don’t break anything when I’m gone and I’ll be in soon to check on you two-I’d better find this room like I’m leaving it”.
Khushi smiled “yes mum” that’s what she always used to say to and his friends when she left them alone to play.
“Coffee Arnav ?”
“Something stronger if you have it ?”
Khushi pour Arnav a shot neat. “I’ll make myself some tea”
“I’d rather you didn’t, I remember the last time.” Arnav place a hand to his chest rubbing it remembering the pain.
“I won’t fling a good cup of tea at you”
“Shall we talk … and clear the air between us like it or not your sister is married to my brother, and we have nieces and nephews’ in common”
“Talk then” Khushi replied
“What was the slap for?”
“You had the audacity to suggest that I going to walk away from a project on a whim and leave things unfinished, that’s not me that’s you, I don’t leave with things half-finished you do. ”
“What you talking about … I complete my projects”
“So you admit it, I was a project!”
“Khushi what are you talking about? what project?”
“Y…y..you only wanted to get me into bed and then after you disappeared without a word”
“Whoa up there KHUSHI KUMARI GUPTA what do you mean I only wanted to get you into bed ….. it was you …you chose to end it ….you left”
“I didn’t end it, you idiot … you did”
“Khushi watch the tone … and don’t call me an idiot….I didn’t end anything ….you vanished like a poof of smoke”
“You didn’t return my calls for three weeks, what was I to expect, I had a show down with my parents, imagine single, no potential husband in sight and pregnant”
“What do you mean pregnant?”
“What do you think pregnant means … I was carrying a child not any old child but your child …Aarav …he’s not something I found under the bushes or picked up from the local groceries store.”
“Aarav’s mine? I think I need another drink”
Arnav looked shocked at that statement and visibly paler.
“He’s 8 years old, who did you think was the father? I didn’t leave your bed and jump straight into someone else’s. What kind of girl do you think I am? leaving yours and before yours is barely cold, I’m in someone elses?”
“Aarav’s mine?”
“Yes , have you not heard anything, I have said”
“Aarav’s mine! Why have you not told me this before – How dare you keep my son apart from me. Why am I only finding about him now? Khushi all this time I had a child in this world and I didn’t know.”
“I KEPT YOU APART ?”
Khushi felt she was losing it, why did he look mad at her infact he was furious
“You never called after … you went away for 4 weeks and then after that I never heard I called you umpteen times for another 3 weeks I couldn’t wait any longer… I had to tell Babuji and Amaa and the rest is history.”
“Well it’s a history I have no knowledge about”
“I called you Arnav , I don’t know how many times you never answered”
“I WAS IN HOSPITAL UNCONSCIOUS AFTER SURGERY – how could I answer, I broke my leg after snowboarding and hit my head, you remember I was going on a snow boarding holiday with friends well they didn’t tell Nani or Di till I came round three weeks later and then Di flew over, it was another 4 weeks before I got back to Dehli and you were gone … no one was talking about you, I tried to call you umpteen times as you put it …a dead line. I tried to find out about you then I heard you had run away from home gone abroad with another man…..every time I saw Babuji he would clam up, Garima aunty and Payal were crying about the fact that you had left after a big fight. So, I didn’t just abandon you …I tried to find you and when I couldn’t, slowly I stopped looking for you and focussed on my business it was the only to survive without you. Then I grew into a habit of avoiding all information about you ….it was too painful… I wasn’t sure I could fix myself up again to function again so it was easier to block you out of my memories. It wasn’t until Akaash told me recently that you had made contact with her and you were planning to meet up that you had a son as well. I thought 9 years …you had moved on. Then when I saw Aarav, I just assumed you had moved on very quickly. Sorry for that …I should have known better.”
“Mum, Mum are you OK can I come in?” Aarav put his head through the office door
“Good uncle you’re alive” then he looked at his mum…She was crying.
In a flash, he was next to her wiping her tears- this was something new to him she only cried in India while in the states she had never cried here she seem to be crying all the time.
“Have you made mum cry …” Aarav stood infront of his mother with his arms by his side and fists clenched getting ready to take Arnav on.
“Aarav, I’m fine, she hugged him I need to talk to your …uncle for a bit longer …grown up stuff, I’ll be out in a bit.
“He is a good boy”
“He is; I didn’t ….I ….no one told me you were in an accident”
“Khushi what’s past is past there have been mistakes on both sides , there is no point in what if, if only the past is the past where do we go from here?”
“I don’t know”
“Khushi, there are no miracle fixes for us- I want to be there for my son; I have missed the first eight years of his life, I don’t want to miss any more. I want to be there at his next birthday, next Diwali, next Holi . I want to see him in his end of term school play. I want to be there for his little achievements and for his big.”
“Arnav he’s mine! You can’t have him”
“Khushi, I didn’t mean that for a minute. I want the world to he has a father and it’s me, he’s my son but not until he’s ready to handle and you’re ready to tell the world. I’m not asking you to move to Dehli. I am asking you for time and not to shut me out. I will come to the states every other weekend to build my relationship if that what it needs. Allow me slowly into your life, till Aarav is ready to accept me as a father. As for you and me we have history, and we still have chemistry. I’m not seeing anyone and I’m certain that you are not because you have not mentioned it. We can start with a date and see what happens – no pressure. We can tell the family or not this is purely your call and what is best for Aarav. And if that’s too much to digest in block break it down think about it and let me know. I will be as little or as much in your life as you want, and you don’t have to answer now – think about it at least”
“Aarav’s waiting outside ….I need to …”
“Time” Arnav replied
“I’ll leave you and give you time to think”
Arnav returned home to Shantivan to a waiting family and a Shashi Uncle.
“Well Arnav…please explain?”
“Uncle there’s nothing to explain, I was out of order at the meeting, and I deserved the slap- I’ve spoken to Khushi and we have resolved it and tomorrow’s a new day and if you will all excuse me I need to have a shower and dinner. Uncle if you want to discuss business I more than happy to after dinner and if you want to discuss the conversation, I have just had with Khushi and my apology, you had better have that conversation with Khushi”
“I’ll catch up on business matters tomorrow, for now I’m off to see my grandchild”
Over the remaining two weeks of that their holiday, Shashi saw the amount of time Arnav spent with Aarav and Khushi. But he also knew that Khushi had made it evidently clear that they were returning to New York ready for the new school year.
Epilogue
Arnav’s frequent flyers miles rapidly built up over the year; Everyone in the family knew Arnav was flying over to meet Khushi but if anyone asked it was the American project. Khushi and Aarav spent all their breaks in India living with mum and dad.
It was evident by easter holidays that Arnav adored Aarav and vice versa the relationship between Arnav and Khushi was much harder to pin down it wasn’t until the summer break when it was accidently revealed at arti time at Shantivan.
The family were gathered in the mandir finishing the Arti when Arnav arrived home late, without a second thought he just went and stood next to Khushi and Aarav and had his hand on the Puja thali on top of Khushi’s fingers and the three completed the puja together.
It wasn’t until after all the children had gone to bed that nani took up the gauntlet and asked Arnav “ Chote is there something you would like to share with us, I ‘m not what surprised me more the fact that you were present for the Arti or that you were not standing next to Di but instead to Khushi?”
“Nani it’s simple, If I stand next to Khushi during arti and hold the thali its less likely to be a weapon aimed at my head”
“Arnav! That was an accident if you hadn’t surprised me, the thal wouldn’t have flown out of my hand”
“or landed on my head so you see Nani its safer for me to hold Khushi’s thal at arti time”
Arnav smiled at Khushi… gazing at her and returned to his family if you really must know Khushi and I have been dating each other and Aarav’s ok with that. They will be moving here to Dehli after Halloween in time for a Diwali wedding. A SMALL INTIMATE FAMILY WEDDING – nani small being the operative word.
It had been almost a year a half before Khushi married Arnav since starting her journey.
And it wasn’t until just after new year that Khushi and Arav broke the news that they were going to have an addition to the family. Khushi had explained to Aarav in no uncertain terms that her and Arnav loved him and a new addition would not mean that they loved him any less. “Arnav is your real father, Aarav you will always have a special place in his heart, and he will never love you any less”
Aarav was so overwhelmed by the news that all he could do was hug and cry into Arnav’s shoulder and Arnav’s response was to join him.
As for the rest of the family when they were told about Aarav’s true parentage just smiled.. too much water had passed under the bridge, and it all come right in the end. Shashi uncle had commented he has my intelligence, and good looks, Arnav your habits and temper, and Khushi’s ability to make people happy. And by the way I figured out you were Aarav’s father when Khushi slapped you that day.
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